It all gets just a little bit harder
The daily successes seem trivial
And I'm just a little more lonely
.....Sometimes.....
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To expound....my days lately are so busy, productive and happy (really!) - but the night times are sucking a bit *sad face*....I don't know if it's because I am putting so much more effort into my days, but once the kids are all in bed and I pass that awesome moment of accomplished satisfaction (accompanied by a massive happy sigh)... I get the overwhelming feeling of "Now what?....So, all over again tomorrow then?"....hmmmm.....Not that I have the NEED for someone to tell me I am awesome (ok, well maybe sometimes and just a little)....but I am having hug cravings (get back already Mr M!), and the desire to hear another voice, aside from the one in my head (which doesn't quite cut it all the time), to tell me they notice how hard I am trying and what a great job I am doing.....that's all. :)
oh boo... yes sometimes if you reflect on your day (esp if its a bad one) you feel like you have accomplished NOTHING.. nothing but getting mad at kids and you still have a messy house! lol though I LOVE the feeling when everyone else is asleep and I can sink into my bed and relax! possibly the only time all day.. I love that first ahhhhhhhh of going to bed to read or whatever.
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