Wednesday, July 14, 2010
Love In Action....
We are going on a holiday in September....back to Tassie, to tie up some loose ends, to visit friends, and for the kids to see their dad.....without Michael I don't think we would have been able to pull it off at all....
There is no other word for it - he has been amazing....*sigh*....his kindness and generosity is slightly overwhelming....I honestly don't know how to receive it....my first instinct is to feel a little guilty - "I don't deserve this!" I feel uncomfortable having someone in my life (romantically) that truly wants me to be happy - and really, I have heard that line before.... but this guy is actually coming through with the goods! (shock horror! Well, at least from my experiences anyway...)
My next emotion is to feel complete indebted to him - and that freaks me out - because as much as I love him I can't promise a permanent future with him...(yet)...not that he has asked.....but in my head, that is the only way I could make it up to him, or maybe...the only way I can actually justify myself in feeling deserving of such gestures of love and sacrifice...cause I tell ya - driving from Brisbane to Melbourne with three children is no easy feat!!...(maybe we will see how he feels when we get back....hahaha)
However, he has assured my that I do not owe him anything and I can 'dump' him whenever I want...*wink*
I never dreamed that it could be this easy (not that I expect it to be all easy sailing, but in comparison....) - that I could feel so secure with another person.....watch out, I may just get used to it! :)