Friday, May 28, 2010

Endings.....Reflection....And The Full Moon.....


Well, I am feeling rather thoughtful tonight, as of 12am I was officially without a license (I got home from dancing with 10secs to spare!...as you do...*wink*) Since this also coincides with the full moon I thought maybe I would take a bit of time to reflect. To set the scene - my curtains are wide open, I have a black candle burning on my bedside table and on my bookshelf I have three other candles burning, with my incense. Black is apparently symbolic of "ending", and quite fitting as I contemplate the next six months and the end of my freedom. I am thinking not only of the "end", but the opportunities this experience will bring.

*It will slow me down *give me more time with the children *I will be more organised *More time and motivation to bake *The chance to save money!!!...to name but a few....

I am a little disappointed with myself that it will take something this drastic to achieve the above - not that this is the purpose - but just that all of these things were achievable anyway.....I have been pulled in too many direction this last year. Hopefully now I can focus more on the important things. Don't get me wrong though...when this 6months is over - dancing will be back up there, even if takes up far less of my time!....For what is life without passion??

Another thing that I have been thinking about this night is "fear"....I have a big fear of the unknowns in my life. I always think I need to have everything figured out, to have all the answers now. So on this night, I am letting go of my fear....and letting time be my guide - I know the answers will come eventually. I will learn as my life unfolds and not be so worried if I have it all right all the time....it is the journey that counts after all!



Happy full moon people! xx

3 comments:

  1. All the Best for the next six months. Hope you will keep your passion for dancing when you return.
    Silvia Parvu

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  2. Happy new beginnings to you!
    Cars are over rated... I'm doing just fine with our bike + trailer + baby seat!

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  3. i love how positives can come out of negatives!

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