Tuesday, January 26, 2010

A Timely Ressurection....."Gourmet" Checker Plate....






This necklace has been sitting in my jewelery box with a broken connection for over a year - it was one J (ex husband) had made for me while we were married and one of my favourites. It sat unattended for so long because I didn't know what to do to fix it - he was good at making things and I wasn't...or so I believed. Having an artist as a husband does wonders for an already fragile self esteem....

Anyway....a couple of days ago I decided that instead of restringing it exactly the same way I was quite capable using the same beads and  doing my own design....this was a big deal for me ok! :) ....It took three goes and a little frustration....now I know why I don't do this sort of thing - I hate fiddly things and my patience is extremely short!! Haha....But it was a success and I am very proud of myself.....So yay for me!



I really don't know what happened to the last couple of weeks....I totally rocked Christmas, had all the presents in advance and wasn't stressed out at all....But then got into super chill out holiday mode with the kids and kind of forgot about school...oops....

So from last week I have been trying to hook up uniforms, shoes and school supplies (lucky I ordered them in advance).....and it has sucked - everything was sold out and I was wigging out because this year I have two children at school and year 2 just seems like a way bigger deal than year 1....I have been wanting to kick my ex husband's a$$ for not having a clue, and not really caring to know what it takes to raise three children....random phone calls just don't cut it!....

In essence I have spent the last couple of days extremely emotional with a major Australia Day meltdown...oh yeah....gotta love those. :| But thanks to an awesome friend for letting me delay their day and having a cry to them, and to my Dad for being such a dude and helping me contact school books etc after dinner, and to my  very cool brother for playing with the kids in the pool (I really don't think he realises how much influence he has in their lives!)

So my kids don't have new school bags for school yet, only some of Ash's books are contacted because the only contact I could find in my travels was one (extremely small) roll  of this checker plate stuff - which turned out to be very funky and I shudder to think how much I paid for it cause I didn't even check. Now it looks like I am all about "gourmet" contact - but really if I could have found any thing else I would have got it!

But the kids know I love them and I reckon we will all survive the first day of school......But my eyes are seriously sore from the whole lot of crying I did today! :P

Sunday, January 24, 2010

Dreaming Of The Countryside.....







Yinnar - Victoria 

I miss the country.....which may seem confusing to some, since I live out in the stix, but that's bush...what I miss is "green pastures, rolling hills  and locals that haven't been to the city in years" country...

I went to visit Moe (Vic) last August - and a friend took me on a tour of the area...the scenery was absolutely breathtaking - similar to the Huon Valley (where I used to live and what I thought was most beautiful place in Australia), but the soil was redder and it was potato country, so the landscape was a patchwork of green and red....amazing...I wish I could find a more accurate photo...

Anyway...

.....I found myself holding back tears (literally on the verge of balling my eyes out) for almost the whole time I was staying there.... I know....what the? I just had an intense feeling of "this is what I want...". The simple life....not easy....but stripped back......less materialistic, smaller schools, community vibe - the kids and I chillin' in the country....:)

Don't know how or when - but I will get there...

Are there any places that stir your soul?

Friday, January 22, 2010

Endorphins, please!.....



 Now I have something to say about running...I love it! I have only taken it up in the last year or so and really - before then I just didn't know what all the hype was about....(obviously only from those that did 'hype' about it).....but since I was completely unfit at the time and the only thing available to me was a treadmill I thought I would have a go. 

Didn't think I would ever be able to run 5km....and I did....

Didn't think I would ever be able to run 10km...and even though I had managed 5km, it really did seem completely impossible! But thanks to the incentive of last years Bridge to Brisbane and the training program in the Sunday paper....and wait for it....yes, I made it...

Now its my thing....its how I destress, refocus and mentally work out my problems, AND recharge my self esteem....cause baby on that treadmill (or on the road), with funky beats on my iPod I am the sexiest woman alive! hahaha..... 

So here's to endorphins those wonderful natural chemicals that make us feel great! :)

Just a little stressed out.....aarrrggh!

I don't know if its because I haven't run/worked out all week or that I am stressed out because school is starting in 5 days and I am just not prepared or hormones (those little devils always seem to play a part somehow!!)....hmmmm possibly all of the above!! But either way I feel like garbage....:(

And now that I am in it - I feel pressure to have an awesome blog....slightly frustrated that I don't know what I am doing.....Its funny how when you feel overwhelmed you just want to sit on your butt and pretend that you are not...which clearly does not alleviate any of the stress.

hmmm Ok...today I will get uniforms, pick up school books and do some kind of exercise....right....and my blog is fine...this is me.

As I "write" this my kids are hovering and Jack seriously needs a tissue....time to get my butt into gear! :)

Thursday, January 21, 2010

Everything happens for a reason....

Umm so its 1.30am and I have no idea what I am still doing awake....I totally know I am going to pay for it in the morning when Jack (my almost 3 year old) comes in at 5am...eek!

Life is bizarre - I don't believe events or the attracting of different people into our lives happens randomly.....tonight I stumbled unknowingly upon the blog of the wife of an old friend of mine...through the blog of a mutual friend (confusing much??)....as I started reading I began thinking about the different paths our lives had taken us over the last 8 years...and in particular reflecting on my own...

Single mum, three (crazy, but gorgeous) children, living like 'Packed to the Rafters' with my parents, my brother and his girlfriend and another brother (with my Grandma next door)....trying to juggle parenting, part time study, my rediscovered passion for dancing and my rubbish attempts at dating (ugh!)....Not exactly how I planned my future!

The idea of writing a blog had previously terrified me, although I have an infinite number of things to talk about -I feel that in doing so I may be too honest, too uncensored and just plain 'too much information' for anyone to want to read about the adventures, mishaps and learning experiences that is my life....But tonight, after reading Lucky Holly's blog posts, I just thought 'why the hell not?"....I am just going to be me, blog style, in all my imperfect glory and see what happens....:)

Ps. It is now 2.17am and I really need to get to bed....thus ends my first ever blog post.